do you remember what a sigh of relief sounds like? i almost forgot. but now i know again.
after the excitement is replaced by contentment, the world goes back to its original colours. i like it better that way. now, i can actually analyse the way i live, the way i feel, the way i crave stablility without giving any back.
i can look truthfully at the way that i befriend the males and then lean on the females for support. it’s beautiful in its simplicity and staggering in its consequences.
you see how i write about males? about you, X, Y and Z?
well, maybe i should write a little about the girls in my life too. because they’re there, because they can hurt just as much as you boys do, if not more. so here we go:
A and B i’ve known since forever. they’ve been there for me as long as i’ve known. and i’ve been there for them – for the tears and broken hearts and shopping trips. i’ve been there when they weren’t necessarily there for each other, i’ve been there when boys’ actions threatened to snap them in two, when the world seemed like a lonely place.
i’ve been there for them and they’ve been there for me.
and then there’s C. she’s amazing. she doesn’t judge. she doesn’t ask for much. she works so hard for everything. she is who i’d like to be if i couldn’t be me.
and there’s more still – there’s D and E and F, but though they’re been here for long, their contribution to my life is scarce, their views so rarely aired i couldn’t tell you them if i tried. there’s even G, who likes X so much i think she’d die of happiness if we were to break up, but hey, they’re not the main players. they’re just letters.
letters from the alphabet of my life.
maybe when this book is over, if it ever is over, the characters will have emerged off the page, letters more than just a part of the alphabet, much more, but till then, let A, B and C remain in their dimension. it is not a dimension that is inferior to you or Y/Z/X, but it is different.
their lack of mention is the very beauty of their existence.
they begin me and you lot complete me.