50. my heartbeat keeps the coffee flowing


can you tell me, why de ja vu haunts me like a predator stalking its only surviving prey? the de ja vu, embossed with its frenchness. just like you. just like those kisses you plant on my lips, their buds opening in the middle of the darkest nights, as i wake in cold sweat, clammy hands turning on the lights to chase the demons away.

and i realise, that love is french, italian, dominican. but more than that, it’s foreign to all of us. it’s language – mysterious hum in the early-morning air, it’s lands – unbounded by borders, it’s people waking up every morning, just like the rest of us, seductive scent of coffee in their kitchens, shatter of broken cups imprinting its echo on the windows.

and when i think of love, i think of the mess that coffee would make, drops collecting, puddle spreading with every beat of the heart. my mess.
and it doesnt touch you. you’re not really here. not entirely. 
and love doesn’t cut you with its broken china or stain your slippers with instant coffee, fresh those marble tiles.
does it touch you at all?

it’s been three months now and i’ve nothing to tell me that i’m yours, only a herbarium of those flowers you bought me the day my mother went to the zoo with my little sister in tow.
only a dead plant, in an envelope somewhere, next to Y’s unopened loveletters and the note that X kissed so that a part of him may remain with me forever, or whatever his reasoning was.

and at night, in somebody’s kitchen, in a land far away, my heartbeat keeps the coffee flowing.

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12 responses to “50. my heartbeat keeps the coffee flowing

  1. love, love, love. Oh, it can be messy sometimes!

  2. moondustwriter

    going back – deadly
    so easy to forget the messy parts

    but ohhhhh those seductive coffee smells

    love ya

    did I invite you to post on http://onestoppoetry.blogspot.com

    you could post this beautiful piece until tomorrow night

    luv ya!!!!!

  3. it’s so hard to be in love, one of the hardest things i’ve had to do. i am loving your writing.

  4. its something you wanted to get in and when you are in, you want to get out.. ;)

  5. i’ve always had a connection between love and coffee.. didn’t know why back then! but now it feels good to know that I’m not the only one :)

  6. i’ve always had a connection between love and coffee.. didn’t know why back then! but now it feels good to know that I’m not the only one
    +1

  7. This is the greatest nonsenese I ever heared off.

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