88. soon, soon


yes, you are right, i should like to hide my head in the sand and pretend all that darkness is nothing but light shining through a filter tinted the colour of night. i should pretend last night never happened, i should pretend i am content here by your side in the leafy undergrowth of life where all i see are roots uprooted, dying in the sun. and would you blame me?

i could not sleep last night, thinking of the shining lights enveloping you, pillow over my head to drown out hurt. i wondered if i ought to watch a film, but that would be defeat. no, i would lay here and count your wrongs, my wrongs, the cracks in the ceiling of our hearts, thoughts, lives.
soon, soon, the artery would rupture and drown out the pain.
soon, soon.

i knew i couldn’t cut myself. what with? a knife? i could almost hear you saying don’t be silly in that tone of yours. and pills, what good would it do? only that i may die without salvation, without the knowledge of how to cling to love by the skin of your fingertips. or maybe i know that already.

and i can’t live with all that poison, not even just for tonight. i would fight but my limbs have gone to sleep and i am faced with a picture of you in the club, music pounding, drinks flowing, girls dancing.
and i realise i can’t say that there is anything missing. there is not.

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6 responses to “88. soon, soon

  1. “i should pretend i am content here by your side in the leafy undergrowth of life where all i see are roots uprooted, dying in the sun” incredible imagery! LOVE IT!

  2. cheers pam :) i try :D hehe xx

  3. “light shining through a filter tinted the colour of night” – hot damn that’s a nice line…

  4. I absolutly love this ” I would lay here and count your wrongs, my wrongs, the cracks in the ceiling of our hearts, thoughts, lives.” hey read my blogs renee029.wordpress.com
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  5. haha, will do. cheers for liking ;) xx

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